There has got to be more to life

I wanna live! I wanna live! I wanna live! I checked out of life and did not even realize it. Just like there are functioning addicts, I was functioning but had totally checked out of life. The scariest part is no one and I mean no one realized it either. It seemed as if i was out of my mind and just watching myself barely function. I had given up on life and the only thing that kept me here was my children and my grandchildren. I had been through soooo much lost, sooo much that I was terrified of losing my children and grandchildren so I monitored their every-move without realizing I had them in bondage. Another word for bondage is control. I was being very controlling. I had to know where they were going , who they were with, what's the address, take a picture of them and send it to me, I needed a life history and if I didn't get it I would call and text their phone and bug them. I would sit up worrying and stressing. Now understand this....I said i trusted God but I wasn't trusting God at all. I did not realize how much I was devastated by losing my loved ones. My last lost I experienced was March 2019 when I lost my mom. She lived to be 83 years old. She was my world and I was felt so lost with out her, so alone. I was grieving hard. Listen, I learned its okay to grieve but it's not ok for you to let go and die. Life is precious and we should enjoy it. So today i choose to live and not die. As much as I love all my loved ones that has passed, I WANNA LIVE. I have so much to share and I pray that as you read my blogs more and more you will be encouraged and choose to live with me. This is day one and there is so much more to come to encourage you, make you laugh and maybe cry. Most of all I hope you are healed from past hurts and ready to Live In Full Effect (LIFE). THERE IS MORE TO LIFE so let's enjoy the journey together. You can message me @ awilltolive1935@gmail.com

Peace & Blessings